Frustration

I am a terrible blogger! I think it's because my life is boring and I'm not real passionate about anthing so there's nothing really to blog about. Wow, that just made me sound really lame. I suppose I could've said that I'm busy doing more imprtant or meaningful things and THAT'S why I don't blog, but I guess that I'm just too honest......sometimes.

So I'm feeling a little frustrated with where I'm at in my life right now. Can't get a loan for a car unless I want to pay 20% interest, which makes me feel like we will never get a loan for a house either (like that would ever happen anyway unless we lived in SLC or Dallas. And can you imagine how much a house would cost in those places?!? $$$$), don't do much other than clean and watch movies with my kids (and the whole time thinking that I should be teaching them something, but they wouldn't listen even if I did), trying to potty train my almost 3-year-old to NO avail......ggggrrrrrrrr, feel a little like an outcast with my family (mom, dad, bros and sisses and mom-in-law), and not real happy with my marriage (there, I said it).

Wow, that was alot of venting! "When upon life's billows....", right? I am thankful for......something.....I know it.....just can't think of it right now. :o( I guess I've just got to lose myself in service. That's what they tell you to do anyway, right? There is always someone out there who has it worse off than you. *sigh* I wonder who the person is who has it just better than me.