Frustration

I am a terrible blogger! I think it's because my life is boring and I'm not real passionate about anthing so there's nothing really to blog about. Wow, that just made me sound really lame. I suppose I could've said that I'm busy doing more imprtant or meaningful things and THAT'S why I don't blog, but I guess that I'm just too honest......sometimes.

So I'm feeling a little frustrated with where I'm at in my life right now. Can't get a loan for a car unless I want to pay 20% interest, which makes me feel like we will never get a loan for a house either (like that would ever happen anyway unless we lived in SLC or Dallas. And can you imagine how much a house would cost in those places?!? $$$$), don't do much other than clean and watch movies with my kids (and the whole time thinking that I should be teaching them something, but they wouldn't listen even if I did), trying to potty train my almost 3-year-old to NO avail......ggggrrrrrrrr, feel a little like an outcast with my family (mom, dad, bros and sisses and mom-in-law), and not real happy with my marriage (there, I said it).

Wow, that was alot of venting! "When upon life's billows....", right? I am thankful for......something.....I know it.....just can't think of it right now. :o( I guess I've just got to lose myself in service. That's what they tell you to do anyway, right? There is always someone out there who has it worse off than you. *sigh* I wonder who the person is who has it just better than me.

Family Resemblance

So I have been told by many people around here that Elias looks alot like my dad. I guess that I never really thought about it or saw the resembance. We were looking through some old family pictures and found these pictures of my dad and his brother as kids. Elias looks almost EXACTLY like him!!! CHECK IT OUT......

Here is my dad and his brother at Easter. My dad is on the left and he is 4 years old. Elias is almost 2 in this picture. Elias can give that same glare that my dad is giving in his picture.

This is a picture of that same day with some friends. My dad is 2nd from the left. This is Elias last summer.

Here is my dad and his brother with their mom. My dad is on the right. I think he is about 2 here. Here is Elias at 2 with Noah.

So what do you think? Similarites? Well if he looks like my dad then he will grow up to be a very handsome man! What cuties!

Moving......

We found a place to live and just in the nick of time it sounds like. I guess my brother-in-law's brother (who is buying this house) was planning on moving here a couple of weeks earlier than we thought. So I'm glad that we found a spot to put out junk so they don't have to worry about staying with someone else.

I will post pictures when I actually take some. The nickname that my boys made up for the new house is 'the box house'. When you see pictures you will know why. Til then......

House Hunting

So this house hunting has become rather depressing. Joey hasn't worked at his job long enough for us to think about buying a house and anything for rent around here is either expensive or disgusting. We looked at a house yesterday that was in our ward and only $450 a month. It sounded too good to be true! Well, it was.

It was 3 bedroom, 1 bath and DISGUSTING.

My visiting teacher is the one that is managing it for someone and she told me that it was disgusting, but I figured that I might be able to clean it up a bit for $450 a month. Nope, I felt gross just looking at it! I don't think that any amount of TLC that I could give it would make it feel comfortable. Let's just say that it put a damper on my house hunting spirits.

One thing that doesn't help is that most people around here don't advertise their rentals. It's mostly word of mouth and if no one knows that you are looking.......it's frustrating. There have been a few people that have given us some ideas, but they haven't led to anything promising. The hardest thing for me is that it's planting season and I really want a garden. I know that I've only had one garden of my own, but it was so much fun to see 'the fruits of my labors'. If we don't find a house soon there will be no garden.

Sad. :o(

So a little more trust in the Lord and a little more work on our part and it will happen. All prayers in our behalf are greatly appreciated!!

Books...

So I had a meeting at Noah's precschool recently and they did a presentation on child abuse and suggested that we read a book. "A Child Called 'IT'". I will warn you that it is the worst recorded child abuse case ever (yes, it's a true story). Noah's teachers said I would need a box of tissues while I read it, but I felt like I need a 'puke bucket' more than tissue. The things that this child went through......... This book should make ANY mother feel good about their parenting skills.

I am now reading the second book of the series and I'm not sure if it's the books or things that are going on in my life right now or what, but I'm just in a weird mood all the time. Not happy, not angry, just weird.

On a good note, Amelia almost rolled over last night! She was actually having a good time laying on a play mat and next thing we know she is on her side. We watched her for a while and she never rolled completely over, but she did turn herself in a circle. She's growing up........*sniff*

Daylight Savings

I love Daylight Savings! I know that there are a lot of people out there that complain about it, but for me the more sunshine the merrier!

The only thing that really screws me up is that I relied too much on when to cook dinner by where the sun was in the sky. So now that day light savings has come we tend to eat dinner at 7 now instead of 6.

I will be going about my day and then glance at the the clock....... "Oh crap! It's 6:30 already!"

Love the sunshine though.................. LOVE IT!!

Sleep Deprived

It has been a little hard to get myself going today. We went to Salt Lake this weekend for a short, impromtu, surprise visit. Mostly for Joey's mom, but we saw some friends as well.

So we got into Salt Lake about 12 friday night and stayed at a Motel 6 cuz they would take dogs. (We brought our little 'Schnoodle', Jack, with us) Now this motel room looked like it had seen better days and that the cleaning crew only did the minimal amount of work expected of them. That, and Amelia was sleeping with me, led to the very long night of not much sleep.

Now, going on vacation or a visit is exhausting in and of itself, but top it off with a limited amount of time and daylight savings in the middle it was VERY exhausting! We had a good visit with everyone though. Maybe a little too good because we didn't get on the road until about 5PM Sunday to start our 8-hour treck home. It was a good thing that the boys were good for the most part and that Amelia realized that it was night time so she slept most of the way. Therefore we didn't have to stop as much.

To make a long story short, we got home at 2AM this morning safe and sound and SLEEPY! I thought, "Good, and few hours of sleep before I have to take Noah to school". Well I was so sound asleep that I don't remember Elias climbing in bed with us sometime. Joey finally woke me up saying Elias was crazy hot. He had a fever, it was 5AM, I got up, gave him a drink of water, which he then decided to swallow and then cough and then spew all over me, gave him some medicine and soothing shower/bath and put him back to bed.

Sleep........oh so short.

Amelia then woke up at 7AM wanting to eat. After she ate she started coughing and threw-up all that she ate on ME. After a quick change and wipe down I had to get Noah off to school. Let's just say that I am running on empty today, but I am glad that my kidd-o's are feeling a little better than they were this morning.

Motherhood.......so full of fun and surprises sometimes.